teenage stupidity.

I hate you, eye..

2011-04-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

Okay. This is a bit out of the blue, but i'm posting anyways. So. Hello blog. After a year or so I decided to revive you and write something on you. So. Here goes nothing.

I just recently discovered that I'm not half-blind. Or I am but my condition is not termed as Half-blindedness but it is an impairment known as Amblyopia or Lazy Eye. Amblyopia is reduced vision in an eye that has not received adequate use during early childhood. The visual stimulation either fails to transmit or is poorly transmitted through the optic nerve to the brain for a continuous period of time and occurs during early childhood resulting in poor or dim vision. This normally affects only one eye. It exactly defines what I've experienced for eighteen years now. Though my concern is that how I can fix this, Cuz I don't want to have a FAIL graduation picture (though it's still two years away.) and I don't want to have any fail anything that has to do with looking straight at the camera.

There are actually options such as eye alignment, eye teaming, eye focusing abilities, eye movements, and visual processing. It gave me a spark of hope when I read a research article which proves that children 17 years and older with this condition can STILL repair this disorder. My face dropped when I remembered that I am in the Philippines, and these special procedures may not be available, or if it is it'll be a pain for my allowance... so I'll probably go with the eye patch method which I will start when I get back to Manila on the 14th.

Looking forward to designing my patch tho :D aaaand coloring my hair ruby tooo :D

I'm currently studying algebra for NMAT exams which I will be taking next NEXT YEAR.

Summer is killing me. D:

Ohwell.

Second to the last.

2010-03-25T18:39:00.003+08:00

2009-11-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

i've got new blog ppl ;)

click tehbananass.

Qchronicles: ADORE

2009-09-12T20:58:00.004+08:00

It's the only thing that keeps us holding on to sanity.

Morning, again. How tiring. Hello. I'm a eighteen-year old Pharmacy student still lost in the maze of being a citizen in this city I was never used to. Every morning, I wake up at five and go to school without any excitement in my eyes. Propped up my self-made frog headphones and boost up the music so I could escape reality without any hesitation. At 6:15 I would be riding the train to my school half an hour away from where I live. It's a pretty long trip, but Imogen Heap's songs keep me company, and I never get tired of looking at the sunrise-lit skies. Manila seems so peaceful at mornings. Birds singing, different students and employees going to their own respectives destitations all dressed up decently with a fresh unfamiliar face. Cats yawning. I used to love mornings.

By 6:45 I would be entering the gates of my beloved university already. I've been spending three years of my life in here fighting off the monsters that haunt me in my nightmares caused by my bloody course. I spend 75% of my day on studying just to be able to keep my grades up, the other 25% is for sleeping. No, I don't allot time to entertain friends and go to parties, and boyfriends are definitely not a part of my vocabulary. My friends say I'm boring, loveless. They say I need to be inspired by someone I adore so much because books can't return my love for them. But there is one thing they have no idea about.

[ending #01] I'm gay.

This is my daily routine. I walked pass the 10-year old building of the Fine Arts department that I always look up to. This is my favourite building of all. But sadly, it reminds me of how I was forced to abandon my passion for Arts in exchange for a building with people in all-white attire.
I passed by the little benches on the corner where lovers sit and where people like me never stay. But lover's did not occupy all the seats, and left a hut for normal loveless people. And the moment I saw that blackish top, and smelled the fragrance of daffodils. I knew he was there. He was always there during this time, sketching a piece or writing a song. My large-glasslike eyes stole several glances of him at once while keeping my posture undisturbed. Trust, it's hard as you can ever imagine. And then, the clock stopped and my world stopped spinning. He looked at me.

There you are, I know that at exactly 6:52 you'll be passing by here again, and finally, at this moment, I caught your mesmerizing eyes. You probably don't have any idea, but I was always waiting for you here at the exact place for almost three years now. A day wouldn't pass without me seeing you pass by in front of me, walking indifferently like you don't have any idea how beautiful you are. I've been knowing you through your actions for all those times. I never missed a milisecond of the minute you walk by. I can even count how many times you almost fall because of your inattentiveness to the surroundings when walking.

I wanted to talk to you. Hear you laugh. Wipe your tears. I wanted to be on your side for so long. But I don't have the courage. I'm afraid that I might not pass your high expectations. I'm afraid of rejection. But I wanted you to know for all these years.. I want you to know...

*swift sound effects*

WHoaa.caught you.What the hell bat ako natapilok?

Hello, I'm Yellow.
I'm Stripe.
I've been waiting for you pass by this bench every day.
Um.. I pass by this building not see it's beauty but to see you sketching.
You filled my sketchbook with your perky smile.
My fictions writings are always about you.
You have such beautiful eyes.
The scent of daffodils make me go crazy.
I wanted to hold you for so long.
I've been wishing to be held by you like this for a long time.
Hey, I've always loved you.
Is it okay if I think I've been loving you?
Yes.
Me too.Maybe next time I'll be able to...

[Ending #02:] TRIIIIIIIING. I woke up, Bullshit. [Ending #03:]

"Are you... okay?"
"Yeah, thanks a lot."

He picked up my books and helped me stand up. That was the greatest moment of my entire life. He looked at me once more and tapped my head lightly, "Be careful next time, Yellow-". He knew my name. He bit his lips and pierced me by looking at me as if his eyes were talking. Then, time started again. He smiled softly, removed his hand from my head and started walking towards his the Fine Arts building, slowly falling away.I was not expecting him to look back, but I just stood there. It was 6:55.

"Hey, I.."
He didnt' look back, it was not loud enough for him to hear.Maybe love was not the right word- yet. No, love sounded wrong. It sounded pure, but not as deep and desiring as that of love. It was not a crush, it was not love, nor desire, want, or lust. It was something else. Something people always miss.

Before I started walking, I noticed a rectangular bulk covered in a bright yellow paper on the bench where he was sitting. I picked it up just to see if he forgot it, suddenly, the yellow covering fell from the gush of wind and then I was already holding a tape.

It was a mixtape of the songs he had written. And the first on the list was entitled, "Adore."

2009-09-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

on leave :)

laazzybummmm

2009-09-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

hahahhaa. i'm still not done yet.. with my other post about the my visit in olongapo and my buuuurtday. hahaha. it'll take me forever before I could finish it.. so maybe i'm not gonna post it anymoore. cuz i'm a lazy frog and that's all i know. I've written it on my journal anyway so Kek can read it if she wants to. Ayun.

i've got a million things to say

2009-09-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

I promise I'll post pictures tomorrow! hahaha.

people greeting me first thing in the morning. cray's presence. iTOUCH.
yellowcab. koencrayroux movie marathon and sleepover galore. koen's
remindmelater. broken glass. bus ride. Esther dress up in a grocery store.
cocolime thai something. horseshoe. party sa bahay. more food. jonas. kiss on
the neck. hugs. sad. back to manila. trinoma, again. koen again. review. chorba.
fisheye. frogrella. stuff.invisible kitkat cake. greetings. raymond's gift and
sucky handwriting. tels' surprise. choco mouse cake. dimples. gifts.
yellowcab. self-designed goldilock's cake. and many more :D

Burtday

2009-09-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

I'm seventeen X)

2009-08-29T15:26:00.000+08:00

I'm currently hungry or thirsty
I visit xanga more than any other website
I haven't had fried food in over a week
My hair is in a ponytail
I prefer Target rather than Walmart
Honestly guys don't confuse me
I'm going out of state soon
There's someone I really want to be with
But it isn't going to happen
I watched TV today
I listened to music today
I've sat on the computer longer than 3 hours straight before
I really like photography
I am an atheist
I hate going to the movie theater
I've had a member of the same sex come on to me
I'm happy with the way I've changed
I have long hair
I've had blonde hair at least once in my life
Try all my life
I'm happily in love
I have a life other than taking surveys
The last person I texted is a boy
I'm good friends with someone named Amanda
My nails are long
I love little kids
I've been to the beach this summer
I was born in the 90's
I was born in the 80's
I wonder when the world really is going to end
I think Shia LaBeouf is sexy
I've been told I should be a model
My life is so unbelievably different compared to a year ago
I've had both verizon and at&t
I honestly don't care about anything
I can't wait til saturday
My bathing suit is black
I have that one person in my heart that i'll always love
I'm wearing a sweatshirt
I'm wearing shorts
I don't ever wear sneakers in the summer
I burn cd's to listen to in the car
I'm going out tonight
I hope life turns around for me
I have a headache and it fucking hurts
I'm tired
I've worked at a grocery store
I've worked at a fast food place or resturaunt
I have older siblings
I know myself better than anyone
I like the fact that I'm really chill, unlike most girls
My boyfriend is also my best friend

2009-08-29T15:14:00.003+08:00

RANDOM QUESTIONS

1. What time is it where you live?
3:19pm, somewhere in Espanya Boulevard.

2. What do you normally do on the weekends?
Sleep.

3. Would you want to know the exact day you are going to die?
that'll be interesting.

4. Say that you are in a plane crash and get stuck on an island like on the show Lost, who would you want to be with you?
Craaay!

5. What day does school start where you live? even if you don't go to school but one of your siblings do?
it starts today for me. and my brother's college starts sept 1st.

6. How old where you when you got your first kiss?
thirteen.

7. What TV show have you seen every episode of?
family guy, house, XTV,

8. Do you believe that there is a soul-mate for everyone?
Maybe

9. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in your life?
five.

10. If you could be anywhere in the world right now where would you be?
anywhere near you. TANG!

Part 2: THIS OR THAT

1. Cats or dogs: both.
2. White or Black: black.
3. Coke or Pepsi: coke.
4. A night out or A night in: out.
5. Chicken or Turkey: chicken.
6. Day or Night: night.
7: Spring or Summer: spring.
8. Fall or Winter: winter.
9. Nike or Adidas: sketchers.
10: Turtle of Frog: WTF. FROOOOOOOOG!! frogfrog! frog dominates!

Part 3: BOLDING
(bold what is true)

1. I am 18 years old or older
2. I have a dog
3. I have a twitter and use it daily
4. My most visited website is Youtube.
5. I live/have lived outside the USA
6. I have never been in love
7. I plan on moving out within the next two years
8. My brother does not live with us
9. It takes me over an hour to get ready in the morning
10. All my friends live on a different side of the country or world
11. I can't stand it when people hear me chewing
12. Gilmore Girls is one of my favorite TV shows
13. Sometimes I think my cat thinks shes a dog
14. My dad is gone for the next two months
15. You have at least one person in your life you can tell everything to
16. Your mom is always on the phone
17. You want to be a photographer
18. You LOVE Dr.pepper
19. You don't understand why there are so many bolding things on this survey
20. You're going to take another survey after this

2009-08-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches, we found that we were one tree and not two.""

2009-08-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

Whatever.

2009-08-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

Haha. I'm maximizing the chance of updating thisss.

Cray is on her way here and i'm pretty excited about whatever's gonna happen later when she gets here. X) We'll watch hundreds of movies and muchmuch more. :D Aaand I'll be saying hello to iTouch later. hekhek. wuuu

franklin.

2009-08-26T20:42:00.002+08:00

And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed

'Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive
Everything has changed

answer me.

2009-08-26T20:31:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking about suciide.
I'm thinking about suicide.
Oh, maybe next week.

i'm always depressed. why am i always depressed. it's so annoying. psychological trait may be a factor, but this is just too much. I've written nothing in this blog but my depressing life. maybe I should start taking anti-depressants.

Kung baket walang pasok nung Saturday.

2009-08-23T16:10:00.001+08:00

OMAYGAD :))

still, faceless.

2009-08-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

Nothing more, nothing less.
May klase nanaman bukas. Nakakamatad na.
May Botany Quiz nanaman. Walang katapusang Botany Quiz.
Tapsi ulet tayo. :)

♥ Roux//.

Yume wa?

2009-08-23T15:42:00.001+08:00

August 22, 2009.

I dreamed of you.

It was one of those weird dreams I used to have before, when everything feels so true, and feels more like reality. I already mentioned before that I had dreams like these that came true. Dreams that feels so real.. just real. But this time, it wasn't about me having you back, it was the opposite.

SO here's how the dream goes.

I went to Montessori Friday afternoon. I waited at the cafeteria. So okay. Melo was there eating, with Rap and they said that there's a basketball event at the back just pass the Chapel (dunno where the Bball court came from). Basta yon, and of course. I know Jonas is there. Of course he is. So I just waited. I waited a while and asked myself why was I waiting when I can go there. But before I can leave from the canteen, I heard someone shouting my name reeeaallly loud. Like a little boy running while flying his paperplane. Then two guys came running. I was glad to know that one of them was Jonas. I was happy to see him smiling, like a hungry monkey going after a Banana across the street.

But it didn't end there, I thought he was happy to see me again but I was surprised to find out that he is not the one calling my name. It was Mark Domingo. haha funny though I have no idea how Mark was included in my dream, but still, it wasn't Jonas. He wasn't happy. When he reached my spot they were both catching their breath.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?"
I frowned.

When I woke up I thought of this and remembered Mark Kabiling. What a coincidence. But I'm glad I woke up before any war happened. And I forgot to mention about Melo's expression.. saying something like Jonas doesn't love you anymore.

It's sad to think that my dream turned out that way. There were no greetings, hugs, kisses, iloveyous and imissyous. Just plain blank face. I don't know what to feel.

I'm not cold yet, I shouldn't be eaten up by my emotions (which actually happens all the time, but hopefully not this time cuz I still want to fix things). I've already told a lots of people that I'm cutting it off. But it's not official yet. I still want to fix it. But I don't know. It's up to him. So here's a question for you, dear monkey (though you're not reading this anymore).

Are you still in love with me?

I need something to hold on to.

♥ Roux//.

Pure hatred speaking.

2009-08-23T15:41:00.000+08:00

I STILL HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU ALL
AND JUST SO YOU KNOW, I’VE BEEN HATING YOU FOR TEN YEARS NOW
{You is plural}

Shit. My week is ruined. Like literally broken down into pieces. I was SO looking FORWARD TO THIS WEEK. You know how I don't think positive and don't expect things, but now I did, I learned that I shouldn't do it again. I hate this.

I wasn't able to go back to Olongapo.
MY WEEK IS FUCKING WASTED.
I SHOULD'VE GOT DRUNK AND INTOXICATED WITH MARLBORO BLACK INSTEAD!

Tell me why would she not let me go to Olongapo?? Her purpose on coming here isn't for me in the first place! AND GUESS WHAT? She only spent 10 FUCKING MINUTES in here! and she's telling me not to go to Olongapo so I won't be able to celebrate my birthday with my bestfriend who now lives in Baguio and doesn't go home often, and other people who makes me feel LOVED?? Plus I'm not even asking anything FROM HER! I NEVER ASKED ANYTHING FROM HER! I've already given her all the good grades and awards she wanted though they are still not enough for her! And please reiterate what I received FROM MY FAMILY DURING MY GRADUATION? TELL ME! I DID NOT RECEIVE ANYTHING! And now, I was only asking a permission to go home to CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH MY BESTFRIEND BECAUSE I WON'T BE ABLE TO GO HOME NEXT WEEK ON MY BIRTHDAY AND WE WON’T BE ABLE TO MEET FOR A LONG TIME AGAIN AND SHE DIDN'T ALLOW ME BECAUSE WHAT??????? Because her twisted self-centered mind is telling her that I was only going home to meet with my boyfriend wrap my arms around him and have wild sex with him. The worse part is, my mother is taking her side, she’s preaching me something about “hindi lang sha kaibigan mo chochochchuchcuhcu” Putangina. What are you saying? When you’re the one who’s got the all grudge and all the bad-mouthing on Mami when she doesn’t give you money. And I don’t get why my mother is literally DISCOURAGING me to have friends. And why?? Did you ever ask how I was doing in college? Did you even ask how I was feeling my entire life? Do I have friends? Have I adjusted? Am I doing fine? What the hell? What the fucking HELL! I hate you people. Thank god I have my dog. Papi always understands.

And this morning she asks what I would do for my birthday. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

She didn’t give me anything during my graduation when I worked so hard for that day, and guess what? She buys Eric a car because they said he needs it and he passes st. benilde. And what did I get for graduating with honors and supposedly having a two-part solo speech in the stage AND for passing UST? Nothing.

And I don’t think I’ll be having a debut next year. You know how I loathe family gatherings.

♥ Roux//.

2009-08-21T16:23:00.001+08:00

dito sa net cafe:
guy with built body: pano mamigay ng pera?
guy with long nails: ano.. (titig sa facebook something niya)

tangina :))

Guess my favorite day!

2009-08-21T16:07:00.001+08:00

I Fucking love volleyball beybe!
and Wednesdays

2009-08-17T16:41:00.001+08:00

Saturdaaay

2009-08-17T16:05:00.003+08:00

Wala lang. yon. Haven't written anything decent since.. uhh. i dunno.

Things we talked about. School. Claze. Ministop. Food. Networking. Job. RS people. Hah? News. Beer Belly?. Hell. Top of the world. Go on Girl. Sex. Condoms. Shocking Secrets. Hearts. Sexmaniacs. Pornstars. Ralph. Cigarette. Bean Bag. Papi. Stupid College. Broke. Addiction. Weed. Gangster's way of texting. Frats. School. Life. Manila. Gays. Lesbian. Fragile Past. And where lonely people came from.

Abby and Ralph slept at my place last Saturday, unexpectedlyyy. Haha. Yun lang :)

I wish this week is a good one. or whatever, cuz there won't be any classes this coming friday, and I think we don't have classes on Saturday too. Tapos It's Margie's birthday something pa this coming Thursday. Odiibaaa? yun lang. haha. tinatamad ako magupdate ng maayos. -_-;

SOMEONE who's been reading my blog from my section with a name that starts with a letter R, is wondering why most of my posts is about depression and sadness and the cruel world we live in. Maybe that's because it's what I feel most of the time.. aaand when something good happens, I always forget to blog about it, or I'm just to glad that I don't want to face the computer and subdue myself in the internet. That's why x)

And then yon. haha. tinamad ulet :D

♥ Roux//.

2009-08-13T17:58:00.001+08:00

Cause sooner or later it's over..
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

Wednesday will still be my favortie day

2009-08-12T19:28:00.004+08:00

It's volleyball day! How exciting can that be?

I'm gonna raise a question, a question that will bother you dear readers. Something I just realized this Saturday when I was at Mcdo with Karen, Anika, Pat, Kuya Jo and Mark.

Bat nga pag sila, mayroon kayong oras, pag ako na, wala na. Nasan kayo? O kaya ganito nalang; Do we still communicate? No right, not anymore. Or maybe only you guys communicate, excluding me. Right? I just noticed something, when she was out and then back here after a year, they were still close, but what happened to us? to the things we used to tell each other? guess there's nothing next to that huh? whaddya think? is there or is there none? I just feel sad about it. I dunno. Maybe that was one of the reasons I was so depressed now it college, because you weren't there to lend me a hand.

Haha. anggulo no. wag mo na intindihin, hindi ikaw yan.

♥ Roux//.

2009-08-11T19:56:00.002+08:00

You'll always see me with these two.. uhh.. aliens. hahaha. :)
That's Margie and Arion on the other side. Haha.
Bagay kame ni Arion dito, wag ka na kokontra. HAHAHA :))
These people are fun to be with, but I still hate college.

paparazzi.

2009-08-11T19:30:00.002+08:00

tama naman spelling noh? haha taenang yan.

instead of doing my theo writing a regretfully yours letter, imma gonna write on you dear. I want to let this all out though I won't be able to do it anyway.

Okay, what's up lately? Nothing much. Though I told people what I feel so that Jonas would have even just the idea what I am feeling right now. I'm starting to hate songs that reminded me of him. Well not really hate hate hate but I started 'avoiding' em. It's depressing.. again. Though lately I've been okay cuz mark has been keeping in touch, I know it's not gonna last for long. And sooner or later I'm gonna let go of the grip and maybe intertwine with dear silvery things. But no. Wait. what the hell. ACK. How could you be so cruel and insensitive? How could you be THIS insensitive? You don't check this blog anymore, and I'm sure you don't know what I look like now, or even remember the sound of my voice. And I don't know why I'm still writing this random insignificant thing though I know you don't care anymore. wtfff. I'm outta here.

♥ Roux//.

HAIRCUT DAY BEYBE.

2009-08-10T19:23:00.003+08:00

Today is an okay day ^^

I finally got my haircut! Haha. though it looks like my hairstyle back in third year high school (it's just that my hair was longer that back then.) And then, yeah. I had a great time today, and that's because we didn't have any homeworks, so we spent the rest of the day making noise at Wendys (tTK) and wasted time walking around SM San Lazaro. It was unexpected with a twist of excitement. I raised the idea and the next thing we were in SM. I didn't get to talk to tels thought which was my original plan for the afternoon.

Karaoke soon. :)
It was a fun day. Maybe I'll be crying my ass out tomorrow. X)

I haven't talked to Jonas yet. No news about that.

♥ Roux//

Gossips.

2009-08-09T17:07:00.006+08:00

Me and the superman boxers.

It reflects the basest part of a human nature, and is a feature of those who take delight in other people's misfortunes. Their lives perhaps are so empty that they need to belittle others so as to be comforted.

This reminds me of some people I know. X).

♥ Roux//

party ppl

2009-08-09T11:03:00.002+08:00

That Afternoon, I went to Mcdonald's to meet with Anika, Karen and Pat. Kuya Jo and a rat called Mark were there too. It was a fun night though we didn't get to actually enjoy the sits and drink and get drunk and throw our depression on the dance floor. Anggulo kase e. Pero okay lang. Masaya naman kahit lakad ng lakad. Haha.

because I'M TALL!!

mark, roux, anika, pat

Uhh ilang oras kami sa mcdo? mga five hours? or lagpas pa? Haha. kulet e.

I missed hanging out with these people. In my surprise, they're sharing same secret as i do. Well secret for me, but not for them. Pwaha. basta yon. It's a bit surprising kase dati when we were in second year we were just hanging around, first time yosi, inom at tongue pierce. Tapos ngayon. Ngayon. Di ba? Ibang iba, pero ganun pa din. Kulet. I'm trying to be more open soon, but I don't think there's still enough things to say about that cockroach.

Uhh, dunno what to say. I just came here to party. HAHA. wtf.

We spent most of our time walking. From here and there and everywhere. But it was okay. Madaming nawala sa mood pero okay lang din yon. Look at the positive side. ^^. I finally saw Anika and I gained a friend, Mark. I thought I was gonna spend the whole day in the house trying to fix my broken heart, and be depressed about Jonas. Hellayeah. I need more people like them, people that makes me forget the bad things.

Home @ 2.
I didn't get drunk. I was looking forward to that. Haha.
Mark's presence makes me not think of Jonas, that's good for that night.

Thanks guys, you made my day :D

♥ Roux//.

Yesterday.

2009-08-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

My trip back here was quite exciting since I rode the bus for the first time. Unfortunately, my purpose of going back here was not accomplished. Jonas is not around. It was our monthsary, and he didn't even bother to inform me in any way possible that he is going to Manila yesterday with his mom. He knew I was coming (awfvckthatpissesme), Melo has shown my messages to him several times. But he still didn't care. He doesn't care, and he won't care. Maybe that's the way it's supposed to be. I'm heartbroken. But I'm tired of shedding a tear for a guy. I'm not sure what's gonna happen next, and I don't want to jump into conclusions. We have to talk. I can't take this anymore. This is just too much. he wasn't the guy I knew when he was courting me. Pfft. Demmit.

Good thing Anika found me. We met that night.

♥ Roux//.

days passed, things happened.

2009-08-08T15:11:00.002+08:00

AUGUST 05, 2009

Hapihapijoyjoy Day!

Well, di nanaman ako nakakapagsulat. haha. but I'm currently being productive when it comes to by journal. Haha. great news eh? Waha. I've got TONS of pictures. But I can't find the usb slot of this computer. Maybe I'll upload them later when Javanet opens.

Arion, Margie, Trinoma, Shops, Apple Store, Tablet, BOXERS, Amblvd, Pictures, Cokefloat, Lakadlakad, Shoe Salon, RS people, Koen, iTouch, Team Manila, Kai, Philip, Eugene, Mara, Raymond, OPHAN, esther, ribbons, Kai screaming her brains out that made the people in the cinema clap for her, haha, pop corns, more pics, department store, frog temptation, P10 magnetic bookmarks, Eugene's gift surprise, sore legs, liners, checks, and everything else in the world. Ah, let's add Koen waving and Danilo smiling in there. :)

hella yeah.. I want to put pictures in here. argh. I edited a lot of 'em XD
I'll post them later haaah.

♥ Roux//.

hahahahahfuck

2009-08-02T18:13:00.002+08:00

wala lang. i found this in Joyce's profile (joyce si dani)

funnyy.

Jibun kuyashii kedo?

Okayokay. I don't have a certain topic to write about since I'm trying to spend my only rest day doing something I like and not so stressing. I've drawn and painted something so I feel quite accomplished. Plus, I'm done with Novie's letter, all I have to do is add more strawberry sprinkles somewhere and finish the drawing then I'll be sending a letter to Visayas for the first time! Yeyeyeyy.

Next week. I can go to Gapo :). Another yeyeyeyy. I'm pretty excited. And we'll be able to spend a monthsary together :D The second Seven we'll be spending together (yess kasi kung di sila ung pupuntang Manila noon, ako naman yung umaalis tuwing seven. amp).

FILIPINO: graded recitation

ENGLISH: answer 137-162?

BOTANY: blooody, bloooooooody quiz.

Last Friday I watched The Proposal with Arion and Margie. It was okay, though I was drying to watch Orphan. Maybe next time, SM is just a jeepney away anyway xD. No need to hurry.

Anyway, I have to write on Kalei pa, and do those annoying requirements up there. pfft.

There is beauty in the breakdown.

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

Did I tell you? I'm in love with Imogen Heap. :)
And I found a friend who knows Yui and Otsuka Ai and Taiyou no Uta, to the billboard's surprise, his name is Andronicus.

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GOODBYE UST.

2009-07-30T18:36:00.004+08:00

Another bad day for me. eh?

I took my Mathematics make-up exam today. It only has 15 items. Plus, I only have to pick 10 items to answer leaving the other five . No. That is not a good thing. I sensed a very bad presence the moment I held the paper. All the bloody topics are squeezed into this 15-itemed test. What the hell. And I sat down. And I took the test. And my eyes sprained from staring at the paper. It was bloody hard.

And for the record, it was not multiple choice. I'm dead. Hella dead. my 33.33% grade in mathematics is.. I guess I'll only make it up to 10%. That means I have to get 25% from prelims and another 25% from the finals just to be able to pass which is never gonna happen in a million years. So. I'll be failing Botany, Mathematics and Theology. In short, I'll be saying goodbye to UST this semester.

And what the hell was I thinking anyway? Why did I miss the fact that Pharmacy has hundreds of mathematics involved?wtff. I should have taken nursing instead- or fine arts. Shit. -_-;

Subic Montessori College, here I come!

♥ Roux//.

Money!moneymoneymoneyyyy

2009-07-28T20:06:00.002+08:00

HAHA! I'm fucking rich! Hahahahahaha! I'm P2,000 short for an iTouch! Yey for me!

but i still need another P10,000 for a wacom. I want a wacom. T^T.

"Today, my husband and I got a new stainless steel
microwave. When we took it out of the package we noticed it was blue and got
angry. We were about to return it, but we called in our 12 year old daughter to
see what she thought of the microwave. She then took off the blue protective
plastic. FML "

HELLAWORLD: unending adjustment.

2009-07-28T19:25:00.003+08:00

Like every person I know who left the beloved Gaporn for college, I'm lonely. Like, sad sad sad sad little girl lost in the jungle of college life- complete with the study of plants and generic names. And it even seems like I am a loner in my class. I'm the 'outcast'. The person from the unknown universe. The wallflower. Wtff. How can't there be any cray or novie in my class? Can't pharmacy students be interesting in a way that they have to spend a day without talking about lame homo sapiens known as boys? Is that the only topic they can talk about? How lamelamelamelame and boring. Where are the French films and 1920s songs? I can't hear any of them in our 1600s building. All they knew was dressing in colorfuls shirts. Wearing retr- styled shirts without knowing who John Lennon was. Flaunting off lyric print shirts without knowing what song was written. Saying "i love pop culture" without knowing what it is. How could such people live with these things? Just lame. I can't even look at them without my eyebrow rising in slow motion. How can you say you love retro when you despise oldies songs? This is just terrible. No one in my class enjoys drawing as much as I do. Their taste in art is unbearable. Like just going with the flow of 'what's in' makes me sick. I don't like the phrase 'going with the flow' when it comes in art. Me and my bestfriend don't have such words in our vocab. And yet that was what happening in my world now. It's just.. hard. Yaknow? that I would rather not speak in class, ignore everyone, and just stay in my own spherical magical world that trolleys made with me, than to be fake things and-ehem- socialize. Geez. What the hell is happening.

But there are some interesting things in my class. Of course I can't ignore the fact that people are different. And our class came from different regions of the Philippines. One of which is this big guy. He's the tallest among all our boys, and the biggest. And his name is Abbey. How cool can that be. I approached him once and asked if it was from "Abbey Road" of the Beatles and I was right. Most likely people would find his name weird, but I friggin adore his parents for naming him so.

And my friends here are average people. I don't know why I'm more comfortable being with middle-class or below middle-class people than those with the same status as.. uhh haha anyabang ko naman, those who can afford to study in Brent (oyan para di mashadong mayabang). Wala lang. Those kind of people who I befriended here. They laugh at silly things and that's all they know. Not a day passed by without one of them fooling around- and laughing. Haha. And I enjoyed playing the part of a guy. Nyaha. That's also because I know that they are the 'better' type of people in here.

Ohwell, but I don't really know much about the others, but whatever. It always takes time. And i'm very good at wasting it. Whatever. I think I wrote too much. I just wanted to say.. that I still miss Olongapo and the life I had when I was there just simply enjoying the ambiance of Dunkin Donuts and journals with Cray. And, like cray, I'm very unproductive now with full loaded pharmacy student duties. Ohwell, guess I can't do anything about it.

I spent an hour in 1A-PH room, Holly Ann was there X)

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

Things to do when I get better:
Get a fucking life.

Anything better than this.

2009-07-27T17:57:00.003+08:00

Bawal kang magutom,
at bawal kang mabusog.

Ano pala?. Pfft. I can't eat too many because my stomach won't be able to digest all of the food I put in my mouth. And I can not not eat because i will have ulcer. So what should I do? I can't even eat anything fried, oily, carbonated drinks (no more Coke for me :{.) and vegetables. Wtff.

But i'm ignoring the ulcer thing, how can I have ulcer? It's like, one of the most impossible sickness I can have. You know how I can't resist the wonderful joys of eating. X)

HAHAHA. Ano ka ngayon! Wala ka nang mapisil na taba noh! :)) kala mo huhh. Nyahaha. I'm back here at Manila again, I'll miss Jonas and his twisted laughter.

♥ Roux//.

less imagination, more talking.

2009-07-26T18:13:00.002+08:00

WELL WELL. Ngayon lang ulet ako nakapagupdate. It seems like years since I touched a computer.

News news? I'm here at Olongapo, at last- and guess what?

I almost had ulcer.

It was gastritis, in a different level. This past week was our Monthly exams, like, the first major exams for Pharmacy students (Yes only our faculty have 3 major exams, everyone else has only two), and I wasn't feeling any good in any way. And because of my severe unending stomachache, I wasn't able to study much. Demmit. T_T. I don't know the results of most of my exams, but I pretty sure I flunked Botany.

Anyway, last Sunday I was confined because of an acute case of food poisoning, at least that was what the doctors assumed it was. I missed Theology and Math exams. Four of my good friends in UST visited me last monday. I was shocked but I feel pretty touched when they came without any notice. That night I was also discharged. I can't stay in the hospital for too long since I'm very disappointed with the UST hospital and their way of managing patients. That 19 hours in there I already had to pay P4,000+ for the semi private room and some drugs I didn't take, and P1,800 for the professional fee for the doctor I only met once. wtfh.

Since I was not cured in there, I had to bear with the pain I was feeling. I was always tired, even just after taking a bath. I barely eat. A part of my eye turned red, and my back ached all the time that I had to sit down and rest my back flat on the wall while waiting for the elevator. Grabe. Basta. My classmates were noticing my weakling appearance and have asked several times why I always looked tired and weary.

Bastabasta, I didn't attend my Saturday class anymore, and went here. Got to the clinic with blood pressure of 80/60. Kamusta namn yon. yun. They inserted IVS again and again. Wtff. Good thing I only had 3/4 packs of it, and by this noon I'm already of them, and feeling a little better.

Parang anggulo ng post ko noh? Pano ba naman kase, ang ingay nila dito. Jonas, joshua johan, melo, renato and someone else. Basta angkan si jonas. nandito. naglalaro ng dota. Well. I let him play his beloved game for now. But yeah.

Wala kaming pasok bukas! Whooo! Rally tayoo! XD
Well, I'm outta here now, guguluhin ko n si jonas :))

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-16T15:41:00.004+08:00

A klepto named Chinky!

Haha! We met today! Grabe! How I missed days like this! I almost forgot about the upcoming quizzes tomorrow because of her! My world turned upside down! Grabi! Ilabyou talaga chinks! Haha. Details next time? :D Nyaha. Binitin pa eno.

MAINGGIT KAYO! hahahaha.
Shem, Chels, Gelai, Lea at Clau (kahit di to nababasa nila Lea at Clau)
I miss you sooooooooooo mats!

2009-07-16T15:26:00.003+08:00

I haven't written anything much lately. College life sure is busy. T_T

NEWSNEWSandmoreNEWS:
Okay, so I have 30 minutes more to spend for internet randomness. Our monthly exams are next week and I have to push my grades up. I got really low scores because of shallow reasons like forgetting an assignment or reviewing cells instead of tissues. Demmit. I really have to catch up. Tapos unfair cuz we're the only ones who'll have tests. We have three major exams. T_T

Uuwi ako next week.

After the bloody examination. Haha, that'll be on the 25th. Saturday afternoon (yes cuz we'll still have classes that day). So. JONAS ALONSO. BASAHIN MO TO:

GUSTO KO NG:
x Malaking palaka o unggoy na stuffed toy :D
x Symphony Chocolate o kaya madaming KitKat <- new addiction x Flowers (joke lang to) x ~~Monthsary gift~~
x yung something na gusto mo bigay saken :D
x At yung sulat mo :D irewrite mo nalang para kiligin ako. haha wag kang tamad para may inspiration ako. SIGE NAAA. :))

Haha. ang demanding ko no. i'm the worst girlfriend you could ever have. Pero yeah. okay lang din kahit hindi pero wala lang. Gusto ko lang isulat :D

Tapos. basta madami pang nangyare :D.
- my senior or junior crush still remembers me XD YEY!
"Uy, naaalala mo pa ko?" HOY XD landi koooo
- Krystl and I hanged out yesterday. T'was fun.
- Saw the poring Joyce!! Haha!
- Volleyball is my FAVORITE subject :D
- basta, madami pang pachorba :D
- 19/50 ako sa quiz sa math.
- Mababa lahat ng scores namen sa Botany practical exam!
Yeah, Botany was soo friggin hard! Grabe! It was so hard that we wanted to burn all the trees in Botanical garden after the test! We just made fun of ourselves to contradict the negative feeling.

That's all? I guess, actually there's another one, but I'm gonna make another post for that because it's sooo special! WooH!

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-14T14:23:00.002+08:00

WAAA sa sobrang tagal ko nang hindi naguupdate ng Tumblr ko,
NAKALIMUTAN KO NA YUNG E-MAIL AT PASSWORD!!

waaa. paiba iba kasi ako ng chorba e. kasi naman eee. pangetpangetpangeeet.

Here in the library

2009-07-13T14:01:00.002+08:00

Pwde naman pala magblog dito e. haha. wala pa namang humuhuli saken so far. Pero yeah. Just updating for nothing. That was a really mean post down there. But anyways. I'm done with that.

I wasn't able to watch the opening of UAAP. Shiet, gusto ko pa naman mapanuod por da pers taym. Ohwell.

WEE, LIBRENG INTERNET!
hoorah library! :))
I lab you men!

♥ Roux//.

WARNING: don't hate me for this.

2009-07-12T16:19:00.003+08:00

"Imitation is the highest form of flattery."

Geez. I can't believe I'm writing about this nonsense again.

Well, I guess you can't really avoid that someone who loves you and you bestfriend more than anything in the world eh?

Though I know that my words are not improving, and I'm stuck without my alter-ego. But yeah. I wouldn't be writing anything about you if you're not getting into my nerves again. Cuz I'm trying to ignore your existence. and forget that you sabotaged my peaceful life. Forgive you though you're literally copying Cray from head-to-toe from inside and out, and lying about things just to sound cool- as cool as the Callora sisters.

Yeah, kung pwede lang magbraces ka na din para parehas na parehas na talaga e. or if you want it the natural way carry a 50kg bag everyday on your left shoulder for 2 years para di fake yung scoliosis. odiba? COOL!

And if that doesn't fill your satisfaction, go xerox Cray's face and write your name all over the copied paper and staple it on your face. That would definitely, absolutely, and UNDENIABLY make you pretty. As pretty as every human should be.

Well people say you're autistic. And I was really just gonna ignore you anyway. Just in this one post. Then it's over. You're nobody again. :3

Oh, I'm sorry for badmouthing, it's just you're a mean person. Aren't you proud of yourself?

♥ Roux//.

Another YEY for me :D

2009-07-12T16:07:00.002+08:00

I just did this this morning. ^_^. wee.

I bought a blank notebook again. So I'll be using this one instead of the Moleskine because the paper is thicker and more ideal for drawing random insignificant things. CRAY, you should buy one too para parehas tayo. ^_^ I don't know what it's called and I wasn't able to took a picture of it, but you can get it in National Bookstore. It has a black hardbound cover and plain pages. Only P200, better get one :D

♥ Roux//.

teka, teka, kelangan ko na talaga magsulat.

2009-07-12T15:48:00.002+08:00

Woh. It's raining frogs again :D

I've got a a lot to say, but i ain't got time to spill all the commotions out.

Here's the drawing that I've been dying to post since last week. Haha. Yey!

Yey for me! I can still draaaaw. Pwaha. Okay. Where shall I start?

First off, I miss Cray. :/ Like Karmela misses eating. Nyaha. I wasn't able to keep in touch with her though we told ourselves a million statements that starts with "Pag college na tayo... ganitoganyan." just because of the hectic schedule. I don't even have time to go online anymore- unless if it has something to do with homeworks and the E-leap. It's so annoying.

Hindi nga pala nadagdagan yung ipon ko for iTouch this week dahil nag SM kami nung friday. And that one day I spent P1000- I don't even know where the money went. I told you malls eat bills, so you must must MUST prevent the tempation of going to the mall which is less than 5 minutes away from here.

We recently had a Filipino roleplay, where I played the part of a.. Boys over Flower guy. Whoever that is, I don't know his name and I don't watch TV. Wala lang. It was funny kase e. We were all girls and there were only two boys in our group. So One of the boys acted as the girl and the other one was for Dubbing. Bsta, it was funny. The good part is, we don't even have to memorize lines! We just talked using a language we don't know without making any sounds XD

Ohwell. NAKAKABALIW TALAGA YANG BOTANY! wooh! And our Monthly examination is fast approaching. I'm nervous about what kind of tests are going to appear, and if we have to memorize all the books in the bible again just to able to pass. I still don't even get special products and factoring (Yes I'm horrible at it, it's math, don't be shocked). Hayy. But at the same time I'm excited about next, next week, after the exams. We get to have the org meeting and after that I can go home to gapo and beat Jonas up for still not having a cellphone.

♥ Roux//.

lay out

2009-07-12T14:47:00.001+08:00

KELANGAN KO LANG TALAGA MAGIBA NG LAYOUT.
kahit ano, basta may kulay.
okay naman na yan noh? nyahe.
naguupdate na hindi pa din tapos ung layout eno.

One hour -> Naruto addiction.
One hour -> random bloghopping.
_______________________

P50.00 na yan di ba? wala pa din ako natatapos. T_T

2009-07-08T19:44:00.000+08:00

SEVEN.
EIGHT.
NINE.

haha galeng. :D ansaya ng volleyball kanina. BOoooootanyy!

2009-07-07T19:18:00.013+08:00

SEVEN
SEVEN
SEVEN

Wee. Six months na kame :D happy monthsary samen! haha. Another monthsary na magkahiwalay kami at walang communication. Odiba. solid. Haha.

Pero kanina, before Math class started, I called him. Para mejo masaya naman. Yon. Syempre. ganun pa din ang flow ng conversation namen xD

"Panget"
"Taba"
"Pangetpanget"
"Taba"

yun lang. HAHA. tae Eight na. kelaangan ko na umalis dito sa net cafe. nyepot. Pfftpfft. I need internet at home bad. T_T. well. Hanggang dito NALANG ULET. mygulay. lage nalang bitiiin. kainess!

JONAS aat MELS - magama nga kayoo. parehas kayong di nagonline! nintay ko pa naman kayooo T_T. pfftpfft. boha. ohwell. nasa multiply ko gifts ko senio na malandi. HAHA. :3 Ang paalala ni inay, study hard.

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-07T19:05:00.002+08:00

"If symptoms persist, consult a pharmacist" -status ko.
"If symptoms persist, consult roux dahil kasalanan niya" -kuya david.

whoaa. Seven na nga pala. what am I gonna write today? Haha. I haven't written anything meaningful these past days. Just the lame things that kept happening to my college life repeatedly. Boha. Though I wanted to write that something annoying or whatever that is, I can't. kasi baka mabasa ng kaklase ko. HAHA. Baka magkaworld war agad sa room XD

Well. Today. I got raped. NYAHA. Joker. Kasi naman enoh. Gusto akong picturan ni darwin barney, e ayoko. tapos to naman si raymond kumampi kay darwin. nooo. Haha. well. I'm still in one piece. Walang Chemistry at Bot ngayon. Thanks to the meeting, we got ourselves a 3-hour break :D

Teka. Yun lang muna for today. Gotta post something about what this day is really about, aside from me spending an hour in Humanities section (which houses all the great art books of the universe) of our library and turning super daark green with envy from seeing archi and cfad students drafting in a superlarge table complete with a huge sketchbook and staedler pencilss.

♥ Roux//.

Well, we can call it a day :)

2009-07-06T17:42:00.002+08:00

Well, we can call it a day :)

(Okay, I'm updating within 15 minutes. Kelangan ko nang lumayo sa computer).

Ham ham ham. I was with Koen today, we ate at Ritz. Yeah. Tapos yun na. End of the world. Haha. I missed times like this. Ya know? Basta yon. Walang pictures kase baka maging inbisibol si kun. Nyaha.

I fuckin miss this. T_T

Tapos, basta basta, ganun. UHhh.. di nako makaisip ng diretso. Madami kasi talagang gagawen e. May test pa sa theo na mukhang ewan. tapos may quiz sa Chemlab. at Recitation sa chemlec. at baka magkaron ng quiz sa Botany. at Baka magapocalypse na. Whoaaaa. Tapos di ko pa din nagagawa ung isa ko pang hw kasi nawala ko yung papel. woaa.

Another thing that made me happy today :D

Melissa Gregory: alam mu yung jersey niya sa basketball..lam mo
anung number nakalagay..
roux: 10
roux: di ba?
Melissa Gregory: 07
na ngayun roux: bat naging 07?
Melissa Gregory: haha...monthsary niyo 7
Melissa Gregory: haha
Melissa Gregory: diba diba
Melissa Gregory:
may utak parin si sea monkeh
roux: hahaharoux: onga
roux: katuwa naman :}
Melissa Gregory: yeehee
Melissa Gregory: haha
Melissa Gregory: tuwan
na yan
Melissa Gregory: haha
roux: HAHAHA
roux: haynako!
roux: galit
pa din ako!
Melissa Gregory: haha..pero tuwang-tuwa ka
naman..uyyyyyyy
Melissa Gregory: hahaha
roux: hahaha
Melissa Gregory:
aminin..
roux: tae naman. :))

The jersey was like this:

aaaaand this :D

roux: onga e. fucha. parang wola sha pakelam saken kahit lam nia
naghihintay ako.
Melissa Gregory: unggoy lang talaga yun..pero lagi ka nasa
isip nun
Melissa Gregory: kasi
Melissa Gregory: nung kiniss aku ni
ranil. nalaman niya. tapos sabi niya "hoy ikaw!alam na ba yan ng nanay mo!?!?!"
Melissa Gregory: hahaha
Melissa Gregory: parang tatay talaga
roux:
hahahahahahahahahaharoux: grabe miss ko tuloy kayo bigla
Melissa Gregory:
awwwe...caramel sessions
roux: ampanget siguro ng itsura niya habang sinasabe
yon
Melissa Gregory: haha
Melissa Gregory: panget talaga

ayun. that's all :) Hahaha. tinatamad nako. I haaave to revieeewwww!

♥ Roux//.

2009-07-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

Things that are a waste of time:

reheated pancakes

alcohol-free drinks

falling in love

2009-07-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

GUSTO KO MAGPALIT NG LAYOUT.

yun lang :D

2009-07-04T18:41:00.002+08:00

Well, I've got nothing to say, really.

OH MERON PALA!.

NAKAKAINIS YUNG THEOLOGY! TSKA MATH! bakit may theo tsaka math? why?? whyyyy?!

Yun lang. Haha. Ay I'm working on a drawing, currently coloring it. And trying to find a way to get an internet for my computer. Hayy. And I can see SM from my room, so mejo mahirap magaral. Haha. tapos I'm almost halfway to my P10,000 goal for an iTouch or Wacom :3. Ohaoha. Tapos ulet, our monthly exams is only two week away, and I haven't got any point for recitation yet. Sucks right. Ohwell. OHwell again, I need ideas. I was thinking if I could ask Arli to color the drawing since my artistic side has been eaten by a GIT drug called Buscopan, an Antispasmodic which generic name is Hyoscine-N-Butylbromide. Okay? :)) Is that understood?

Yeah, about the drawing again, it's pretty cute, the title was "Fishing for frogs and monkeys" haha. Ohwell(ulet). It's a pretty good thing that Meyang left her USB with me, it's very useful to me :))

2009-07-02T18:20:00.002+08:00

I want to change my layout. But I don't want to spend a hundred for the internet. T_T
(Yeah the Internet here is P25 an hour, I have to bear with that).

Question: Is it true that Globe Broadbands or whatever USB Internet thingy that is only made for laptops?

That'll be so unlucky of me.

And another thing that's making me sad lately, I've been in a number of unfortunate things because of my carelessness and stupidity that'll will occasionally bring my grades down to the core of the Earth soon.

1. I wasn't able to pass the first and the easiest Theology homework.

2. And I wasn't able to do the Second Theology activity on Eleap.

3. I forgot to bring my Botany Lab manual when we have to pass the 2nd activity.

4. I don't fucking RECITE.

5. I HATE RECITATION.

6. I was asked to locate the proper punctuation marks and capitalizations in a paragraph during English class AND I WASN'T ABLE TO ANSWER. (damn this right? It was soo easy!)

7. I SUCK AT MATH. Damn. My efforts on escaping polynomials and factoring back in second year was useless! Dahil yon din ang topic namen ngayon! at kulang nalang lahat ng letters sa alphabet e nasa equation!. Aaaggh!

8. And many more shallow events.

Sometimes I just get lucky. Like, when I forgot to bring a double-sided tape and the regform photocopy in PE class yesterday, someone brought the tape, and our instructor was considerate and gave chances to those who forgot to bring their photocopies. Pfft. God is still so kind to me.

Lately, I was casted as the main character in a mini-commercial that we made for a drug called Dulcolax in Pharmacy subject. Yeah. Though the presentaion lacks sound, it went well (though I forgot what's gonna happen next and just did an adlib). The good thing is, during the practice I was able to make my group laugh from my silly actions and stupid ideas (like putting a paper tablet on top of our foreheads while saying "If symptoms persist consult your doctor"). Haha. Yown.

I met Joyce during P.E. classes! Haha! And it looks like we'll be seeing each other more often during Wednesdays because of Volleyball. Though we're not on the same class we are both in the field on the same time. Tapos tinignan ko si joyce habang nagwawarm up sila, NAKANGITI ampots :)) hahaha. tumatawa na ewan. hahahaha. poring talaga. tawa nako ng tawa nun e. nyaha. x)

HAHAHA. Tapos madame akong jokes para sayo! hahaha pero pagnagkita nalang tayo kase may actions.

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-30T19:37:00.002+08:00

Opposite to what happened yesterday,
This day was just disastrous.

Damn. That's all I can say. First thing in the morning, I forgot my Regform in the condo and the guard didn't let me in the Main building. So I went back to the condo just to get the damn regform instead of going to the Dean's office. I was late for 15 minutes (thanks to myself cuz I got there 30 minutes earlier). Good thing Raymond (The guy on the picture below), saw my violet headband and recognized me walking back so he came with me back to the condo and carried my megaton chemistry book for me.

Yeah, and we ran up to the Fourth floor of the main building. I palpitated and it was a bad one.

Yeah. Too much for that but my unfortunate events didn't end there. Many more misfortunes came next. I failed Chemistry Lab First Practical Exam. As in FAILED. You know? And it was because of my STUPIDITY and CARELESSNESS. damn. (I'm updating a pretty long one I think? This pharmacy commercial tomorrow is gonna kill me next; they wanted me to be the main character!).

Tapos, I think 50% lang ako dun sa Theo kasi di ako nakapagreview tapos dapat exact words yung definition. Damn di ba?

Tapos ang bigat bigat ng megaton chem book. bwiset. tapos dinagdagan pa ng sobrang kapal na algebra book.

basta basta. I had a very bad and tiring day. The thing that cheered me up today was the RALLY we saw from the tower. Haha KABATAAN LABAN SA CHA-CHA. yeah. (Ou nabasa ko kasi ung salamin ko parang magnifying glass XD). Ibasura ang chacha! Yeah!

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-30T17:56:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a happy day agian. Yea, Too happy.

Haha. Yeah, that was a pic taken from the elevator here in Espanya Tower. Yeah. Yesterday we did a lot of cool things. We went to Trinoma without even knowing how to get there. Haha. Here are two friends I got to know last week and we, eventually got together that day (and planned to go to a mall). So yeah, I thought Trinoma was the best place to be in :3 BUT, honestly, we were there NOT to 'gala' or hang around or something. I needed to buy a broadband internet but the person there said it was only made for laptops.

Well, Yeah. That's all. :) Kai is so damn cute. Isn't she?? di baaa? She's smaller than me! Yey! Haha di ako pinakamaliit sa klase! (first time?) haha. joker. Ayon. tapos,, yun. We went around Trinoma window-shopped until our feet were sore.

We went there to buy internet, but ended up with a mini Rubik's Cube keychain in my hand. Haha. Ohwell :) We stayed together until the Sunset in my room was done. Pretty pretty pretty.

† More pictures here :3

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-26T18:33:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA WTF. I forgot to write the most embarrassing thing that happened to me yesterday!

Hayy grabe. Di ako makapaniwala! My own cellphone betrayed me!

Kase, ganito yon. Math class. mga 1:00 - 3:00pm. Edi yon. Syempre, nagsosolve kami ng problem. syempre lahat kami tahimik. as in tahimik talaga. Sa dami namen lahat nagcoconcentrate. edi yown. Tapos nagtatanong pa ko sa katabi ko nun, nagpapaexplain dahil nga di ko magets (as always). So ayun. Eto na, eto naaa. syempre tahimik diba? diba? tapos BIGLANG NAGALARM YUNG SELPON KONG ABNORMAL! tapos alam mo ba kung ano yung alarm tone ko? alam mo ba kung ano?? gusto mo ba malaman?? ha? ha? ha???

LOW!

tae! low yung alarm tone ko! kasi yun yung nakakainis sa song ee! tapos biglang tumunog, nagtinginan mga kaklse ko saken. tapos syempre pinatay ko bigla.. edi yon. okay na. as in tinanggal ko ung battery tapos kinabit ko ulet. tapos tinapon ko sa bag ko ung selpon. after 10 minutes of peacefulness. BIGLA NANAMAN NAGALARM! pucha tawa na ng tawa mga kaklse ko, pero mejo pigil kasi nga ung teacher di ba. pero yon ngaa! tae this time di ko na binalik ung battery. grabee. tawa sila ng tawa. sobrang pula ko na siguro kung anime ako sobrang liit ko na :))

2009-06-25T18:58:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day :D

Yes, today is a happy day that I feel like updating though I have tons of homeworks to do :D

I'm not gonna go into details, cuz it'll take too much time. And I don't want to jump into conclusions. Tsaka mababaw lang yung reason ng nagpasaya saken. Sa Math time pa nga. Odiba :3

The thing is, they're starting to discover my talent. or Whatever. I get those same compliments ^_^ well not -exactly- the reason behind teh smiley face but I made someone laugh... or no. Let's say I was myself for an hour or so. Yes, that's exactly the words I'm looking for. Yeah. Tapos mataas ata yung grade ko sa ChemLab Quiz kanina. Yey. ^___^

Basta. I was drawing out of boredom kase, tapos ung katabi ko naamaze and all. Tapos yon. Dun na nagsimula.

Hindi to yung EXACT na mga sinabi nila a. basta ganito yung naging flow ng conversation.

Raymond(ata): alam mo yung Cardcaptor Sakura?
Syempre mejo natawa ako kase out of all those Anime CCS pa naisip
nia.
Ako: Ou naman chorbachorba
Sha: yung si Sakura, tapos si Syaoran
Ako: favorite ko dun si tomoyo e. ung bestfriend ni sakura
Sha: ahh ung black ung buhok chuchu.

Tapos, mayamaya, sumingit na sii.. bsta lalake din .tapos malaki sha.

Boy2: (basta he started talking about Sakura, and clow cards and all)
Kame: (oo naman ng oo tapos yun)

Tapos, may sumingit ulet.

Boy3: anu yan?
Boy2: cardcaptor sakura, alam mo yun?
Boy3: Aahh yung may wand? tapos pinapalo niya yung chuchuchu** (with actions)
Boy2: ou ou
Boy3: tapos may teddy bear pa nga na lumilipad e.
Boy2: Oo si Ceroberus
Ako: tapos nagiging lion
Sha: oo tapos si eriol, na may laging pusa
Boy: tapos si yukito ba yun. tsaka ung kapatid ni sakura
Boy2: mukhang bakla kamo yung dalawang yun.
Boy: Oonga oonga.

haha. Wala lang. Natatawa talaga ako. Kase Sa dami ba naman ng anime sa mundo. pwede namang pokemon, hunterxhunter, ghost fighter. Haha. Cardcaptor Sakura enooo! Haha. tatawa talaga ako. Hindi ko akalain na alam nila yun, tapos Lalaki pa sila lahat. Hahaha!

taposss

Ako: Alam mo yung Digimon?
Tawaa

Haha. yown. :D wala lang. masaya. Sana lage ko nalang sila katabe XD. Kulet e.
At nagaral na kame ng Math na hindi ko ulet nagets at inexplain nalang nya saken :3.

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-24T16:38:00.002+08:00

Blogging and Regrets.

Ack! I hafta make this quick and straightforward. Ubos nanaman allowance ko sa internet cafe! My gulay. Yown.

Gaaaad. I can't believe myself! I despise myself so much! Why the hell did I got too depressed over certain people during high school when I could have done so many interesting things instead! Arrgh! I just realized it now. What a stupid person I am!

I wanna learn violin and piano. I still haven't saved up for a P5000 violin. I haven't watched hundreds of movies that Cray wants me to watch. I didn't master Canon by Pachelbel in flute. I was too lazy to draw masterpieces. I wasn't able to learn French. I wasn't able to master Japanese language and grammar. I want to paint more! I wanna learn guitar though I couldn't be good as a fifth-grader in strumming. I haven't riden any roller coaster or whatever with Cray. I haven't finished BOKURA GA ITA though I have the CD now. Sleepovers. I wanna watch Amelie. I wasn't able to search more beautiful songs in the net cuz I was too busy singing RNB. I still can't drive! I wanna have an eye surgery. I'm still negative in an optimistic way. I haven't explored this place yet. WE WEREN'T ABLE TO HAVE ANY PHOTOSHOOTS! (daaaaamn). I still don't have my own camera. I still don't have a Wacom! Aaarggghhh. Cut classes! skip school for a day just to watch Supernatural! I haven't finished Supernatural season 2 yet! And and and aaand...

Andame dame. Grabeee. ANd now I want to do all those things, and Cray isn't here anymore. Sad, sad, truth. I need my alter-ego right here, right now! I don't know.. I feel like I can't do anything without her. Y'know? the usual things. I can't even draw right.

No, I have friend that I'm always with in UST, but I don't feel like myself when I'm with her, or with anyone in class. I feel like I'm being imprisoned, or something, by some thing called Chemistry :)).

The hell. You know I'm also kind of regretting taking Pharmacy. I want to draw! I'm so jealous of Tels and Chinky when all they have to do is sit down for 4 hours or so in class just drawing! Aaaaaaa. That's why I couldn't wait for Student Organization sign ups. I want to join an artist guild where I can meet people like myself and Cray and Arli and Koen! Aaack Nakakabaliw!

And I think I'' be joining UST newspaper whatever. If I could make it, I want to be a cartoonist :3. Or a comic artist. Acck! My artist cells are hyperventilating! Help!

Okay. that's all for today. I need to study for a Chemistry test and rewrite my Botany lectures :(.

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-24T16:21:00.003+08:00

Fat-pinching News.

If you love me so much and recall my "nababasag na balita' post last June 11, 2009, here's the continuation. Haha, I always forget to tell you. Haha. tantananaaaa! *drum rolls*

KAME PA DIN NG UNGGOY

KONG BOYPREN NA SI JONAS.

Oh yes you heard that right. Haha. Were you surprised? Were you shocked? Was you face looked like an ape seeing a zebra and a bear having tooot? I know I should have considered what Novie said, but I just couldn't let go. Ya know? Why not give people you love one more chance to prove themselves? Haha.

I don't know why I'm laughing, or whatever youc all that. But we have another problem. (Yeah curse that problem). And it was the same problem as before, COMMUNICATION. My gad. But anyway. I think I got used to it already. And no he's not like what you think he'll be. Di magttwo time yown no, panget yon e. Haha XP

I've been trying to contact him through Char, but he doesn't go to school nanaman. What da pak. Hainako. GGyerahin ko yon pagbalik ko ng Gapo.

Ohwell, another fat-pinching news. I think I'm doing fine with my classmates now. Though I still haven't got the chance to socialize with 'the popular ones'. Whatever they want to call themselves. You know me, I dont talk to' people who are not close to me unless I've got something to say. Unlike with Cray, Novs and those people who know me well. I would rather ask them if they've seen a flying pig rather than to keep my mouth shut.

I told you God is good. He's got his own way to settling things, and I'll go with his flow of things. Though I feel bad not going to church all the time. (Can't you see what college is doing to me? I'm becoming a very spiritual person!). Ohwell again :D I miss people.

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-24T14:34:00.003+08:00

River Flows in You - Yiruma

Haha. I'm currently listening to River Flows in You by Yiruma. Haha. Sorry for the bad feedback to the twilight lovers, but I agree with those two up there. This is song i soooo soothing and all that. Makes my emotion stir up into one big ball of cosmic infinity. >_<>

We don't have classes today because of their whatsocalled Manila Day. Haha. How come we don't get to have an Olongapo Day huh? huh? where people would give each other wedgies and kisses on the butt. Haha.

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-21T19:06:00.006+08:00

Optimistic Insight:

RESET.

must start life tomorrow :)

Because today is a happy normal day, I'm starting this post off with a positive something. No, I did not find out that my Senior crush likes me but the thing that's been driving me crazy ended today (I cannot tell you what that is). But yeah, all I can say is, God is good. Don't forget to thank him all the time. :3

Francis Jonas Jesuit Afable Alonso. Magonline ka na pwede ba? XD

And Karen Vesa Callora Pangkulay, mag globe ka na para blue!

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-20T20:32:00.002+08:00

Surprises:

I stared at this fountain for more than 30 minutes.
And I'm still amazed :)

2009-06-20T19:54:00.003+08:00

FIRST WEEK OF COLLEGE:

Okay. That's a nice froggy smile for all of you to let you know I'm still breathing. But honestly, I'm having a hard time adjusting. I know I shouldn't feel this way, because all my life I've been transferring to different galaxies one after the other almost every year aaand I've been with different types of people and I kinda did a pretty good job socializing. But this is just terrible.

I don't feel homesick, friendsick, lovesick, bedsick, doorsick or elevatorsick whatsoever, but I just don't feel anything. Just plain boring things happen day after day and that's just not me. I don't even feel comfortable in class either, and the fact that I can't express myself is suffocating me! I know that I just have to let go and be free like a birdy flying to the horizon, but I just can't- and I don't know why. It's like I have to be in my comfort zone which is nowhere in Manila.

I know how to socialize, but I don't know how to keep a damn conversation running. Can't avoid the fact that interest is very important. And also the when the time I get to talk to somebody, my urges to continue talking fades away. Which is weird. And I don't know why stupid things have to happen. That's why I go straight home after classes to be with my dog who completely understands me. I dunno. I haven't drawn for a while and I have to escape reality.

Friendship is very precious, and I don't know why I just can't keep one alive. Tell me where you are now. Montessori friends? other school friends? SPED friends? BRENT friends? HAU friends? RS friends? I had a lot. But everyone's gone! YOU READ THIS BLOG but you don't even care to take a second off your time to text me! I don't get you. But today I know I must start making new ones, but this really frightens me a lot. I feel like I'm back to the days when my only friend was a cutter, and yes. it is depressing. I am alone.

And tell me why the fuck do I have to have a stage-fright that made me freeze in front of the platform in front of all my unknown classmates for a minute while describing one of my favorite things in the world? (2x2 Rubik's cube).

Ohwell, maybe I just miss the happy times, college is hard. I CURSE MONTESSORI A LOT FOR NOT GIVING SUFFICIENT KNOWLEDGE but i still ove the uniform though. I have to put extra extra extra effort to everything I do. and maybe You too. damn.

P.S. don't take this the wrong way, I have friends. I talk to my seatmates when I have to. I'm not totally alone in the black hole. I just feel so left out. Why won't there be a Crayoun in my class? Or maybe a Novie to draw with.

♥ Roux//.

curse this internet cafe. damn.

2009-06-15T20:20:00.002+08:00

Apucha, lahat ata ng tao sa mundo may Swine Flu! Lahat may sipon at ubo! Grabe!

2009-06-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

1 Hour internet per day.

this isn't fair. and this internet cafe is using an old version of internet explorer. diediedie internet explorer. do you know how much I hate you?? my friggin tumblr won't show and I can't even log in. Geez. Die internet explorer i'm telling you!

And please tell me how I could live with only an hour of internet a day when I spend almost 14 hours in front of the computer during summer? Oh well, I guess it can't be helped.

♥ Roux//.

Clean jokes for the slightly twisted minds.

2009-06-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

Clean jokes for the slightly twisted minds.

2009-06-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

Demmit. Angganda! Hayley Williams yan.

2009-06-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

woaa. guess what. i procrastinated again and forgot about this. haha. ohwell. i have no time tonight anymore since we're going to manila tomorrow (yes bukas na talaga, hindi kami natuloi ngayon kasi may rally daw e). yeah. can't stay online for long since i'm going to get the computer and papi ready for Manila tomorrow.

my 6-month old tumblr has 264 posts.

and this 1 year and 7 months old blogspot only has 311 posts.

lazy bumbumbum. X)

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-11T13:56:00.003+08:00

Damn it, it's been 3 days. Curse Procrastination

Nababasag Na Balita

Breaking News:

Haha. X) Oyeoyeoye.

I promise that I will not procrastinate and search random things in the internet and finish coloring that drawing. (Oo, paa lang kinoloran ko kasi tinatamad ako XD). For the sake of teh blog.

To do list for the day.

[ ] have a date with Ange.

[ ] Get a haircut

[ ] Meet the Summers

[ ] Print their gifts.

[ ] Watch the sun set (if it didn't rain)

♥ Roux//.

2009-06-07T23:24:00.003+08:00

SEVEN NGAYON!
Happy Monthsary Monkey!
Five months na tayo :)
I loooove you!

2009-06-07T22:59:00.003+08:00

'Di Na Mababawi - Spongecola

Ngayo'y aking inuunawang pilit
Mga pagkukulang kong iyong ginigiit
Sana'y malaman mo na tanging ikaw lamang
Ang aking iniintindi

Nakatanim pa sa'king ala-ala
Pangako mong mananatili ka
Kaya't paglisan mo'y naiwan ang pusong ito
Na ngayo'y bitin na bitin

Chorus:
'Di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?

Nasa aking guniguni malamig mong tinig
Kasabay ng hanging na dumarampi
Na para bang ika'y nariyan sa aking paligid
Tahimik na nagmamasid

*Repeat Chorus

Nahulog na'ng mga ulap, buwan at araw, mga bituwin
Ang ginugol na panaho'y na saan? (panaho'y na saan)
'Di ba't sayang naman? (Di ba't sayang naman)
Giliw yeah yeah yeah yeah

Ngunit di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?

My gulay! I lab this song. X) I've been hearing this a hundred times on the radio whenever we go to Manila and it's just today that I decided to see the full lyrics. And for the record, tamang tama sha. O diba diba. I was a bit surprised that Spongecola sang this. I thought a new artist did, but anyway.

Spongecola's UNA, and 'Di Na Mababawi. =_=. Anubayaaaan. Saktong sakto. The same artist. The Beginning and The End. I guess I can really never bring the past back, especially when it's running away from me, for the second time. This is my weakness, and i'll try my best not to let it overcome me. Ohwell. Know what? I'm not gonna shed another tear- or blood, anymore. Because I'm a rock. Rocks don't cry when they're thrown or stepped on. Kase, solid sila. Like me! wtf :3 "Bee Happy" ika nga ni Jollibee. Odba?

But I'm sad and disappointed, on how things turned out to be. It's the least expected, actually. Because I thought we were strong, but I was wrong. And the only one holding tightly was me. Don't worry kiddo, I'm not gonna cut my arm open for you to come back. I know that wouldn't work- I've tried it before. Ohwell. At isa pang Ohwell. Ayoko na nga magblog tungkol dun. Nakakadepresstressmatress.

♥ Roux//.

Hindi ba, sayang naman?

2009-06-05T13:46:00.003+08:00

Click image for larger view :)

Oh joy. x) But we're still going to Manila today. Crap.

I returned the jackets, and threw away that cushion.

Neither I don't know the reason behind those actions,

but I feel both sad and relieved.

Ending something without a formal confrontation, that's just.. unfair.

An act of a coward. Yes, a coward you say.

2009-06-04T23:50:00.004+08:00

Nadelay yung luwas namen kasi kinonfine si Nanay sa ospital sa Pampanga. :D

Tomorrow,

the world will start revolving again

And you're going to be just fine.

I promise. :)

2009-06-02T13:44:00.004+08:00

That's the way I wanted to start June.

I had fun yesterday :)

It's been a while since I had a day like this.

Out of my desperation to go out of the house and explore the universe, I went to Olongapo without even knowing what I'm gonna do. On the way I decided to do that thing I love doing before. Yep. And there I'm back at Dunkin Donuts where I used to spend hours just writing whatever on my Binder Of Life and eating Choco Honey dipped doughnuts and drinking massive amount of Cokegod.

So here are the series of things that made me happy. :)

Seeing Olongapo once again

Watching different teenagers in different uniforms having fun together.

The feeling of sitting on a jeepney.

Waving to Ryan Pacheco.

Every footstep I take on the way to Dunkin.

Passing by Danilo, Thoni and Julian.

Danilo's killer smile. HAHAHA. And his Dimpopols.

Dunkin Donuts.

Seeing Jeric and Wilfred and waving at them from Dunkin.

Seeing Koen in green cap and green converse and a sketchbook? crossing the street. (I was suppose to call him but it took me a minute to decide if I will or will not).

Seeing Wilfred and talking to him, like the usual.

Laughing at Dail's hair and Arvin's weirdness.

Seeing Mels and Char.

Meeting Cray! Unexpectedly X).

Talking to Franz and Kuya Mei.

Calling Pads Wewey.

MCDONALD'S!! COKEFLOAT! SUPERLARGE FRIES!

Going home late. ^___^

Nyahe. Madaming nangyare kahapon. Haha. Sana ganun lage. But I think I would be happier if you were there.

Well. I'm going to Montessori today. See ya. X)

♥ Roux//

Just get back up when it knocks you down.

2009-06-01T21:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down.
Just get back up when it knocks you down.

THE LYING SURVEY
YOU MUST ANSWER ALL QUESTIONS WITH A LIE!!!

Do you smoke?
- Always.

Are you a virgin?
- I had wild sex a thousand times.

Can you type fast?
- I can't even type without looking at the keyboard.

Are you mentally challenged?
- All the time.

Do you like school?
- sms? OhHELLYES! i love it!

Are you gay?
- Sometimes.

Do you want children someday?
- No, I want puppies.

Can you swim?
- Only when the moon is red and I turn into a jellyfish.

Are you Chinese?
- Totally!

Do you like cats or dogs better?
- Neither.

Have you ever been drunk?
- I think so.

Do you have a thing for 1 of your teachers?
- Yeah. Ssshhhh.

Are any of your parents gay?
- Very.

Do people usually come to you for advice?
- Never.

What's your favorite color?
- Dull ones.

Are you happy right now?
- Nooooooooo.

Do you like music?
- What?

Are you eating anything right now?
- Yes.

Have you ever fought someone?
- Yes.

Do you like chicken?
- I hate chickens. They snort.

What's your fave fruit?
- Cherry.

Do you have a crush on someone right now?
- Yes, he's awesome.

What is the name of your crush?
- His name is Awesome.

Are you a vegetarian?
- Yes, I feel bad for pigs.

Do you like to sleep?
Sle- eping is boring.

What is your favorite food?
- Liver.

Are you sick ?
- Yes.

Do you do well in school?
- I'm a nerd.

Are you heart broken?
- No, I'm so happy I can jump off a building.

Have you ever been dumped?
- NO, whatdahell?

Have you ever cheated on a gf/bf?
- Yes, a couple of times.

Do you like your name?
- I love it.

Are you sitting down or standing up?
- Standing.

Do you know someone who's survived AIDS?
- Everyone!

Were you adopted?
- Yes, and my foster parents are black.

Have you ever counted to infinity?
- Whenever I see a yellow car pass by.

2009-06-01T12:47:00.002+08:00

At kung lagi lang tayong masasaktan
Iwasan na lang natin magtinginan
At kung di mo kayang tisiin ang iyong nararamdaman
Oo na, Malaya ka na

2009-05-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

But you know I love the rain...

2009-05-28T20:15:00.006+08:00

Beeeeeeee Happy Duuuuuuuuude!

Because thoughts can kill me, I decided to stay out of my room for a while. Being in my room makes me both comfortable and lonely. Instead, I helped out doing chores around the house. Nanay taught me how to cook sinigang and all that stuff. Then I washed the dishes, prepared meals, Punaspunas, massage nanay, hugas ulet, and yeah. That helped out at least.

I bloghopped and found this X)

Wala lang, nakakatuwa lang kasi lahat totoo. Nyaha. x)

MANNERISM AND PERSONALITY TRAITS

You point with your lips - Tipong panguso-nguso pag may ituturo o iuutos.
You consistently arrive 30 minutes late for events - VIP kuno! laging palate.
You play pusoy or mahjong - Sugaleto kahit sang kanto may makikita kang naglalaro ng pusoy o saklaan.
You scratch your head when you don’t know the answer - HaHa.Ano daw?! kamot sa ulo pag di alam ang sagot.
You put your foot up on your chair and rest your elbows on your knees while you eat - Sitting pretty sa hapagkainan,yung muka ng indiano sa pagupo.

VOCABULARY

You say ‘Ha?’ instead of “ano?’ - Pag nagutos at hinde mo narineg ang unang sasabhin Ha?
When somebody gives you a compliment, instead of saying thank you, you say ‘hindi naman’ - Pacute pa! Gusto laging inuulet ulet.
You say ‘Hoy!’ to get someone’s attention - May pangalan naman eh, Hoy pa talaga ang gingamit.
You ask for ‘Colgate’ instead of toothpaste - Colagte daw! LOL brand po iyon.
Your sneeze sounds like ‘Ahh-ching’ instead of ‘Ahh-choo’ - Talagang pronounced as Ahh-ching yan for sure may kasama pang mgandang mukha!

OTHER SIGNS:

Cokes are reserved for visitors to your house.
You refer to seasonings and all forms of MSG as ‘Ajinomoto’
You check labels on clothes to see where it’s made
You have a ‘tabo’ in your bathroom
You always leave your shoes at the door.

Got this from Karen Dayle's blog . Haha. Natuwa kasi ako sa pangalan niya e. Karen Dayle. Parang Karen Dail. Nyahahahaha. X) ohwell. Gotta draw.

(★) inaxor

2009-05-28T07:51:00.002+08:00

ayaw ko tlga ng summer eh dami ko problema sa family badtrip.sorry roux .ganito kasi tlga every summer eh . wag mo iisipin na wala na ko pake sayo sorry roux i love you

Seven para maganda.

2009-05-28T06:10:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, I discovered something bad. Something that I never should have known. Something so painful that the my vision started spinning and my heart started breaking (again). Something that made me barge into the CR where Ineng was taking a bath. I needed to get away. I needed tissues.

From my Tumblr.

I wanted to die. I wanted to die so bad. Tapos wag nalang, because If I die, Papi would stop eating. I had a terrible night. My eyes are swollen again. They're huge, like Iyah's. Why does it has to be like this? I'm waiting for a miracle.

~~We're going to Manila again, be back tomorrow.~~ Hindi kame natuloy :D

(★) inaxor

2009-05-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

You lied.

How could you do this to me?

2009-05-25T19:26:00.002+08:00

“ I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.
Augusten Burroughs

2009-05-25T18:45:00.003+08:00

I'm watching the world move.

Okay, just got in the mood of blogging since I haven't touched the keyboard for weeks(except for yesterday) and my fingertips are itching.

So what's happening in my life lately?

As much as I wanted to go out and be with people I've told to hangout with a thousand times, I can't. Why you ask? I'm medically unstable. Gaaadd. It's so annoying. Half of my face is hurts when you touch it. It looked like I have Bell's Palsy, except that it's not totally paralyzed, but like the palsy, I can't really move my facial muscles and if I did it would hurt so bad I would want to eat you alive.

Luckily I didn't have to go to an ophtalmologist or a maxillofacial surgeon. My appointment with a oral surgeon was cancelled. Hayy. There's an abscess somewhere in my gums which gradually took over some nerves that caused the horrible pain. The infection spread out and my muscles on my face started swelling. Good thing after 5 days of suffering and 4 sleepless nights the swelling lessened.

Today I'm feeling a bit better and the swelling of my face got smaller. I hate this sooo much, there's only two more weeks left before the college starts and all I can do is nothing but sit somewhere in a corner of a room and watch the world move.

I've been miserable. Really. I have no social life. My cellphone is always dead. I only check my YM for offline messages. And I seldom go online in any of my social networking accounts. What a sad sad world.

And I think Jonas and I are already over. We've had no communication for more than a month now.

Thinking about anything makes me more depressed. Honestly I wanted to jump off my room from the 32nd floor of Espanya Tower. My father even noticed it and told me not to go in the terrace. I'll just watch Spongebob and bee happy.

(★) inaxor

Because the world is round.

2009-05-24T17:08:00.003+08:00

I'm sick, and I think I might be going to surgery tomorrow.

Goodbye cruel world.

2009-05-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

Chocolate makes me happy :)
Yey for chocolaates!

2009-05-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

Letters In Your First Name:

A B C D E
F G H I J
K L M N O P
Q R S T U V
W X Y & Z

Letters In Your Last Name:

A B C D E
F G H I J
K L M N O P
Q R S T U V
W X Y & Z

20 Random Statements: Bold What Also Applies:

` - Under 110 lbs.
` - Over 110 lbs.
` - 5'5" or taller.
` - Shorter than 5'5".
` - You enjoy wearing make up.
` - You almost never wear makeup.
` - Your favorite season is Spring or Fall.
` - Your favorite season is Winter or Summer.
` - You have dark-colored eyes.
` - You have light-colored eyes.
` - You have your license.
` - You do not drive.
` - You have been out of state.
` - You have been out of country.
` - You have listened / enjoy listening to music in another language.
` - You are in, or finished with high school.
` - You are in, or finished with college.
` - You know ( basically ) what you want to be when you grow up.
` - You have been to the movies recently.
` - You have finished a book within the past month.

20 Have You Ever's; Bold What You Have Done / What You've Experienced.

` - Been to or through more than 15 states.
` - Been on stage.
` - Been dumped.
` - Been the one to dump someone.
` - Been in a car while the driver was under the influence.
` - Been pulled over or stopped by the police for any reason.
` - Finished a video game by yourself.
` - Cooked a meal for your family.
` - Had a power outage last more than a few hours.
` - Taken the tag off of someone's survey on purpose.
` - Been the only sober person at a party.
` - Been the most out-of-control person at the party.(Haha di naman no)
` - Been given a label that you feel didn't fit you.
` - Been humiliated in a public situation.
` - Been proven wrong over something you were sure you were right about.
` - Dissected an animal in a science class?
` - Taken something from a stranger?
` - Taken a picture of yourself specifically to put up on some social networking site.
` - Gone over your texting limit - if you have one.
` - Tried to get someone else to do something that was " wrong " or illegal.

50 Random Bands Or Musicians To Which EgoOverdose Frequently Listens / Bold What You Also Like.

` - Jack Johnson.
` - Dallas Green.
` - All Time Low. <--ONLY the old stuff
` - Oasis.
` - Ween.
` - Cypress Hill.
` - Incubus.
` - The Wallflowers.
` - Fleetwood Mac.
` - Boston.
` - Foreigner.
` - The Rolling Stones.
` - The Flaming Lips.
` - The Verve.
` - Wheat.
` - Tokio Hotel.
` - MUCC.
` - BLOOD.
` - Gackt.
` - Miyavi.
` - Gazette.
` - An Cafe.
` - Dir En Grey.
` - Kansas.
` - Disturbed.
` - Godsmack.
` - Creed.
` - Shinedown.
` - Trapt.
` - Sixx:AM.
` - Rammstein.
` - Yelle.
` - Smashing Pumpkins.
` - The Beatles.
` - Shiny Toy Guns.
` - Evanescence.
` - Fiona Apple.
` - Tool.
` - Beck.
` - A Perfect Circle.
` - Within Temptation.
` - Utada Hikaru.
` - Ayumi Hamasaki.
` - Radiohead.
` - Interpol.
` - Cobra Starship.
` - Nirvana.
` - Jason Mraz.
` - Yellowcard.
` - My Chemical Romance.

20 Statements: In The Past Month, Have You ... ; Bold What Also Applies To You.

` - Met anyone new.
` - Went out of town.
` - Purchased anything.
` - Purchased anything over 100 dollars.
` - Sent more than 1,000 texts.
` - Watched a movie you hadn't seen before.
` - Discovered a new band that you enjoy(ed) listening to.
` - Been to a concert or a gig.
` - Signed up for an account at a website.
` - Cleaned your room.
` - Attended school.(summer class)
` - Had anyone walk out of your life.
` - Have anything humiliating happen to you.
` - Stayed up all night.
` - Wished someone a Happy Birthday.
` - Had your own birthday.
` - Been a passenger in a car.
` - Been the driver in a car.
` - Broken anything.
` - Done any sort of drug / ingested alcohol.

2009-05-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

1. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Fingers.

2. Have you ever kissed anyone named Matt?
No.

3. What does your last text message say?
Dunno, too lazy to read, it's a gm from Koen though

4. What was the last song you listened to?
Take My Hand - Callalily

5. If you hated someone and got put in charge of their funeral music, what would it be?
I will refuse to take charge.

6. What did you do yesterday?
Went to art class, slept for about 4 hours, woke up in the afternoon, surf the internet, made a bookmark for Liezl.

7. What did you dream about?
I don't remember.

8. Pick a scar on your body - what did you do?
Wrist. I cut myself.

9. Last time you cried:
Last night

10. Who's your most religious friend?
I'm not sure.

11. Who do you trust with your life?
Nanay.

12. If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
Periwinkle :3

13. What would you do if someone told you that you were the most beautiful person in the world and they would do anything to wake up to your face each and every morning?
I would cry. Haha.

14. Do you trust all of your friends?
I guess so? Cause if I don't they're not my friends.

15. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
Yes.

16. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes.

17. Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship:
Verbal anf Physical Abuse, Cheating.

18. Which one of your top friends do you think would make the best prostitute?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Kilala nyo na yun.

19. Who is the nicest person you know?
Joyce Jornacion

20. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
Be happy again.

21. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
Si Papi

22. Would you make a good parent?
I guess so, except the fact that I don't cook.

23. Where was your default picture taken?
Room.

24. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
Francis Jonas Jesuit Afable Alonso

25. Who knows you the best?
My cousin Josanne, Cray, and Jonas, aaaand Papi-dung

26. When is the last time you liked someone?

27. What are your plans for the weekend?
I think I'll be in Manila that time.

28. What's your favorite saying?
"Aanuhin mo ang malapalasyong bahay kung si karl naman ang nakatira"

29. Have you ever punched a tree?
No, trees are friends, not people's faces.

30. Have you ever snuck out of your house/someone in your house?
Yess. I snuck out during New Year's Eve to be with Jonas, and couple more times during the night to see Jonas. And I snuck him in the house and raped him. }:]

31. How would you describe your relationship with your best friend?
It's fine I guess, we don't really meet a lot like we used to though and it's sad.

32. Morning or night person?
Night person.

33. Are you there for your friends?
Yess. Of course, if they needed my criticisms I'll definitely be there.

34. Do you like to spend time with people?
Depends,

35. Are you a forgiving person?
It depends but No.

36. Would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
Si Jonas? Kay Cray?? HAHAHA Sige lang :)) di naman magsasalita si jonas e. hahahaha.

37. Have you lost a friend recently?
I dont' know.

38. Are you talking to someone while doing this? Who?
No.

39. Do you want a relationship right now?
I'm in one right now. Maybe. Yes.

2009-05-19T21:18:00.003+08:00

1. I have had alcoholic beverages before.
2. I have been drunk before. (hahahaha)
3. I'm an alcoholic.
4. I have never had alcohol in my life.
5. I have smoked cigarettes before.
6. I have done drugs before.
7. I have been high.
8. I'm addicted to drugs.
9. I am wearing black right now.
10. I am wearing red right now.
11. I am wearing blue right now.
12. I am wearing pink right now.
13. I am wearing yellow right now.
14. I have a boyfriend.
15. I'm not sure if I have a boyfriend.
16. I want a boyfriend. (Someone specific.)
17. I have two or more best friends.
18. I only have girls for best friends.
19. I only have guys for best friends.
20. I have a mixture of guys and girls for best friends.
21. I shop at Abercrombie and Fitch.
22. I hate Abercrombie and Fitch.
23. I shop at Hot Topic.
24. I hate Hot Topic.
25. My favorite color is pink.
26. I talk on the phone way too much.
27. I sleep a lot.
28. I never sleep.
29. I generally go to bed so late that I end up sleeping until afternoon the next day.
30. I love to shop.
31. I hate shopping.
32. I love movies.
33. I hate movies.
34. I like country music.
35. I like rap.
36. I like pop.
37. I like jazz.
38. I like rock.
39. I like metal.
40. Marilyn Manson scares me.
41. I love Marilyn Manson.
42. I hate scary movies.
43. I love scary movies.
44. I'm fat.
45. I think I'm fat but everyone tells me I'm not.
46. I'm not fat.
47. My hair is up right now.
48. My hair is down right now.
49. I only take surveys when I'm bored.
50. I like taking long showers.
51. I have at least one piercing somewhere on my body.
52. I have more than one piercing.
53. I have more than two piercings.
54. I have more than four piercings.
55. I have at least ten piercings.
56. I have a tattoo.
57. I want a tattoo.
58. I hate school.
59. I love school. (sows XD)
60. I have an iPod.
61. I have had braces before.
62. I have braces now.
63. I wear glasses and/or contacts.
64. I watch a lot of TV.
65. I love Family Guy.
66. I love Futurama.
67. I love Gilmore Girls.
68. I love Laguna Beach.
69. I love American Idol.
70. I watched American Idol until Chris went home.
71. I love MTV.
72. I hate MTV.
73. Sometimes I watch "Next" on MTV just because it's fun to make fun of.
74. I'm going to take another survey now.

2009-05-18T17:16:00.002+08:00

Yehey!!

2009-05-18T17:08:00.003+08:00

"A woman's tendency to be compulsive relaxes as she remembers that she is worthy of love - she doesn't have to earn it, she can relax, give less, and receive more. She deserves it."

- Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.

Can you believe that I'm actually reading this?

2009-05-17T18:36:00.005+08:00

Whooaa. Today was like, one of the greatest days of my life :D

One of the things I thought that would never happen came true this day. The

[XXXXX] Meet a famous artist(not like an actress but the one that draws) and get an autograph.

Weeeee. I really didn't think that this would happen. I knew that Joey Velasco is going to start exhibiting his phenomenal works of art in Dream Plaza today but I didn't know that he was actually gonna be there! Deym. I should have prepared something don't you think?

Okay, we had mass this morning, I thought that I would only see his paintings again but I was wrong. When I got in the theater my cousin suddenly pointed someone and said "Yun si Joey Velasco o, tapos ung nasa tabi niya ung asawa niya". I was like whoaaaat!? I can't believe my eyes. I felt excited and somewhat overwhelmed. That's like, my idol (ihatethatwordbutwhatever), the person I look up to when it comes to the fields of Art and realism, is right in front of me! Geez. I didn't know how to react so my face went stiff with a wide smile and sparkling eyes.

The program was a bit boring 'cause the politicians who were there released some boredom gases out of their mouths repeatedly. It's so hard cause every one of them gave a boring same speech that I doesn't show that much appreciation for Joey Velasco ohsogreatness and presence. I and my cousin almost fell asleep in our seats, their voices are like unfriendly lullabies in our ears telling us to doze off and ignore the world. But when Joey Velasco went to the stage, I was alive again, and I just couldn't stop smiling!

At first, I tried so hard to be away from him as much as possible. I practiced invisibility you know? and surprisingly it works. Haha. I didn't want Atemami to call me and brag to everyone about my painting skills and be ashamed in the end- or whatever similar to that. So I faded into the background and hid at the ministore thing with my cousin and Papi.

Though I was successful at first, I really couldn't escape the fact that at one point this time Mami will call me and introduce me to Joey Velasco (that's my advantage). So she did, but after some pictures I was only able to talk to his ohsoprettyandkind wife. It seems that she's taken to like me 'cause I'll be studying in UST, my interest in art and myself being an 'Extrinsic child'. Good thing that it ended quickly so I went back on hiding again.

After a few hours of waiting for nothing and suffering the heat of the Philippines, Joey Velasco had to leave. People are hurrying and buying posters to get it signed. I told my niece to bring my poster and have it signed so I don't have to.. you know.. socialize. whatever. i'm stupid at this X).

But that wasn't the last of the line. I told mami to get our big copy of The Hapag Ng Pag-asa and have it autographed. And to my cleverness, Mami told me to get it signed. So in the end all my efforts on trying to be a wallflower was useless. So then, I took off.

I was the last one to get his autograph, I guess. Cause he was already in the car. Then his wife started talking about me. "Ah sha yung ano.. na magmemedicine na.. chorba." haha I was pretty flattered and shy. I told him I wanted to take Fine Arts but couldn't. I saw kindness in his eyes and eagerness to help me develop my talent. So while he was signining my name, he even wrote the name of his friend in UST on the frame that he knows could help me. I think he's a son of the Dean who took up a medical course despite of his passion for art. He even told me where to go. I was so happy. He and his wife told me some more things before I ran off with a 1-meter long frame. I couldn't believe that I actually talked to him face to face. I couldn't stop smiling- yet again. Maybe I'll meet him again in UST some time soon. ^____^

Argh I hate it when I don't have pictures to post.. Pfft I'm so stupid talaga. That was a once in a lifetime chance.

What adds to my disappointment is that I wasn't able to bring anyone with me to the exhibition and meet him personally. Pfft. but anyway,

HIS PAINTINGS WOULD STILL BE IN DREAM PLAZA UNTIL MAY 31. So please drop by to visit because once you see these breathtaking images I swear you will never ever forget them. Okay?? nagaadvertise ako ditoo I once didn't completely believe in God. But now my faith is back, and this is one of the things that made that possible and easier for me. So what I mean is this stuff is really good I can't even express it here how great it is. You really have to go and see it for yourselves.

(★) inaxor
paintings that heal.

2009-05-15T17:32:00.003+08:00

Amateurish. I know.

2009-05-15T17:15:00.009+08:00

Whoaa!!

I was playing Typeracer cuz I was bored and couldn't sleep. And loook!

hahaha. Grabe. Naadik ako dun a. When I played as a Guest I got a score of 112 wpm. Sayang x), Owell :3

ULOLLERSSS

were suppose to meet today and eat at Yellowcab. Well that was the plan but I didn't know what time should we meet, and since no one is texting me.. I'll just waste more time doing random things. How about.. Answering another meme??

Ow! Just got an idea on what to do next! Hahaha. Memorize Kiss Me Japanese version!. Nyahaha!

Kiss Me (Japanese Version)
Sixpence none the richer

Kiss me
Mugiho no hodori
Nightly kusa na namima
Futari hane hiroge
Omekashi wo shite odorou

Oh, kiss me
Awai yamiyo ni lead me
Tsuki wo matteru yo
Hora gora un
Kaze ga utatte hoshi ga odori hajimeata
So, kiss me

Kiss me
Himitsu no shiro de
Swing me taiya no fune
Hana no boushi wo motte
Anata no papa no yume e

(★) inaxor

2009-05-15T13:40:00.005+08:00

Right. before my poor Firefox crashed. I was doing thissss. Hahaha.

I MADE A MEME!
I MADE A MEME!
I MADE A MEME!
CLICKLICKCLICKCLICK!

dumdumduuuuum!. boha. The color is different from what it's suppose to be because the scanner couldn't make the sky blue mechanical pencil's marks more visible. So I had to improvise and change things. It's pretty hard to adjust the colors in Photoshop though and the light shadings disappeared. Well. Whatever-. I made a Meme!.

(★) inaxor
mememememememmememe!

2009-05-15T13:29:00.002+08:00

Wheeeew! I thought I was totally doomed! Grabe. I wasn't able to update last night about our hang-out day yesterday with Cray becaaaause My Firefox CRASHED. I thought I was the most stupid person ever for downloading a Firefox theme from an unknown author. Now I know why Cray doesn't want to download applications in her iTouch. I miss Foxkeh's cuddly tail and the way he runs on the top right side of the browser. Now I'm afraid to download random softwares too @_@.

My Internet Explorer doesn't work well and always gets stuck. Good thing I'm pretty good at this computer thing. Yey. Oooo I love Firefox. Die Internet Explorer.

(★) inaxor
saved!

2009-05-12T20:49:00.001+08:00

EepyBird's Sticky Note experiment from Eepybird on Vimeo.

From the creators of the Diet Coke and Mentos experiment, EepyBird show us how to have fun with sticky notes. www.eepybird.com

2009-05-12T19:24:00.004+08:00

haha funny site. x) you should build a squid too! :)